yesterday i really had a great times with my fellows girlfriends and some my gfs friends, yes i really do had a great times with them but than ??

*whats bothering me*

I kept fighting with boyfriend days and nights,i'm so tired ! really not tired having you be with me, but i so tired with minor arguments :((

I dun know who i'm suppose share with.

yes as you can see i do have a lot of girl friends , but i not close to anyone . Kawan kawan gitu aje .

My bbyG ?? haish idk, everybody they have their own problem to solve why must add mine to theirs right ?

bab kata orang " teman ketawa memang ramai , teman bersedih dimana mereka ?? "

.... living in this kind of life is not easy as what you tot , i not a young teenager anymore i'm in my twenties now . another months i'm 21 .i have alot of responsible to do . Since i was 13 i look for my own money to survive as my family financiial problem is so tedious, i have to do two things to gain up my future.

I work as waitress in Eagle Club and yes i earn alot 2 weeks you can earn 500bucks, is like ??

but it's haram tell me 13 years old girl working under goverment(betol tk spelling) ? but just to let all this people know i not leaving a life that full with happiness . with all this i have to live alie with my own nenek .

I'm sorry i have too its not that i want , but too help my own studies buy my own thing and add when i was secondary ART is my subject and it cost alot of money .

People been wonderiing where my real dad ? My dad has passed away 10 years included this year.

Yes i growing up with a family with a bad background, but i didn't even once blame on them !

i love them very very very much ! Mommy brought me into this world with lots of love, oh mama beranak kan saya operate taw bukan senang beb! HAHAHA . =)

Sometimes when i realised , wheere my friend all go when i really need a shoulder to cry on ?

will i call them will i be distubing dem , will they say eh problem kau apa ada kena mengena dengan aku ?

or or they say , "entah la, terpulang apa yang kau rasa kau patut kau buat "

idk, for the past 9 years my bbyG does they know me very well ? Does they appreciate the friendship that i really appreciate and thank to god we are all back together, but we haven't met as 6 !

haish i guess my red month sudah datang tu pasal asyik mddy , eh apa nie benci ar red month !

stop red month boleh tak sioooo ...benci taw ! HAISH -_-

YES I MISS MY BOYFRIENDD SO MUCH , COME BACK QUICK BABY!

Jaga diri semua -Asslam'mualaikum