today i feel that i just wanna cry, i don't know why , i really wanna cry all my heart out yea all i know is too cry, but that what actually women and girls do when there's no reason they are crying for what right..
I don't know in my heart telling me i'm lonely i'm sad and i'm stressed but because of what ?
Sometimes when i about to go to sleep but my eyes just cannot shut there's always someting in my mind .
I'm too tired to think , enough the work that i work hard on too it but people always tot i the lazy one i the one who always plays around , i really had enough . People say me here and there whereby i didn't do anything . Nothing ! By why you guys keep saying bad things about me why ? did i own you any money any stuff? why when i work all through hard you guys didn't even see that sometimes i'm sad i'm just too sad, all i just wanted is appreciate all the hard work i've put it . I really had enough of everything . When i not in da blame , i get verbal letter sometimes you can't blame me on everything, it's just sad that thing i don't want it to happened but it has already haappened . Time flies very quickly, with all those years i've put up with shits and shits but still not an appreciatation , but a scolding and twisted stories, come on guys if you dare talk behind me , come and talk confront me, don't hush hush behind it. I'm not as what you stories about, i felt so touched when my collegue say that you are the most collegue friend i ever had say Ling. Yes i'm touched with it, eventot i was almost half fainted just now. I'm Human not a freaking robot who can handle everythhing at one time and one go.

I've born with feelings . I'm too soft hearted at a times i might be irratating , i know that.
I just hate when having this type of friend "'forget friend kindness". Don't be to boasy to show me that you have everything now, you will never know when you have that everything and that everything you live with suddenly , you left with nothing and when the part come you left with nothing , it;s the time you remember you didn't even appreciate the kindness and now than you keep regretting of losing friend as you keep boasy with the everything you have, Believe in karma babe. I might be nice to you i might be your wonderful friend, but when you pick me when you are in thorn and leave me when you don't need me you not that kind of friend that i want to . Cause i don't need it. You can kiss my ass babe.

Having a boyfriend is like a wow-wow feeling, someone to put out your tears, someone to be there with you when you are down, shared problem with you  be by your side when you needed him but will this feeling will always be the same as the first time? Involved in love is not the easy thing to do , is not eveything that you wanted will always be. Ups and Downs there always a must, why can't we give in and take ? Either because one is sturborn and another is _____ . (Help me fill up) . Sometime's when you tot of ending everything in your life for love is totally a stupidity thing , <-- who ever do that is so idiot ! I'm here all alone in my room and i was waiting for your call sms but neither you text me, all you say that you was waiting for me to call or text you.I'm so tired almost fainted at work so busy at work and when i get home i rush to bed and i was looking at my ceiling and suddenly my eyes shut for awhile. when i wake up around 1.09am i check my phone it was battery flat totally off , than when to charged it on the HP , but nothing new in my inbox. And now you blaming me for being rude to you. Am i very rude to you, am i a very bad girlfriend to you ? Did you know that i have stop doing what i used to do ?. I here patiently waiting for you, and wanna shared problem with you but you was sleeping ? tell me phone call is only we are doing to communicate with each other now, i can't feel you i can't touch your warm hands, i can't lay my head on your shoulder , i can't get any kissed with you, I can't talk with you face to face , i can't do anything .everytime when i say all this you will always say you are sick and tired of me isit ? I wanna talk with you nicely but you ..now you can't see me how much tears had felt from my eyes . All you thought i was the sturborn ones i the only ones is right .

XOXO THEM MUCH? ? FLYAWAYS; =)