yes i can't sleep, its actually has been past few days from wednesday things have been not that good to me , tapi aku tetap sabar dengan dugaan dan cobaan yang tuhan beri kan , aku tabah dan banyak berdoa , ok aku stress yes i'm ! i started too get my nicotine puff again, i drank again alone at work unbelieveable i know, but no ones know, i know i shouldn't do that.

I really do miss my sister alot ! yes! i miss my sister alot and so much !

kaq, aku rindu kau sangat-sangat . Aku nanges teringat kan kau . Entah kau da makan ke belom entah kau gah buat apa da mandi ke belom , please la kaq, aku minta kau repent please . aku nangis tengok mama, aku nangis aku tk dapat jumpa anak sedara aku . Aku tak kuat kaq . Nenek tak tau apa pun . Nenek nak gi operation lagi, Tok Musa meninggal jam 11 malam semalam . Banyak benda berlaku dalam fiqiran aku. Aku nak case kau menang , Mama nak pasang lawyer. Aku betolbetol rindu kan iqram, aku malam nanges sendiri aku tak tau nak buat apa dari aku berdoa tu je yang aku mampu .

Aku betolbetol rindu kan kau kak, rumah sunyi tanpa kau , tak sangka guruan pagi hari rabu boleh jadi satu perpisahan , aku betolbetol risao kan kau kak , maafkan aqu kak , aku nak kau cepat keluar ;'(

ok i'm crying when typing dis , i totally sad , i have no one turn to now . i really need and miss my sister :'(

i have been crying since last wednesday , idk how much tears have been falling from my eyes and now it's totally swollen . i love my sister alot and i love my nephew alot too!

Asalamuailakum

With Love, Feralyna Natasha