Asalaimualaikum, wow 4 days i have not yet update . What Happening ?? Guess i'm lazy to on my lappy. I have not been online , only randomly i don't know why, yes i feel so down lately. Very :(

Firstly Can i let out my feelings i guess its better.

I wanna ask an apologise to babyboyfie, Fiq.

Fiq, saya tahu saya da terlalu banyak menyakiti awak, tapi apa salah saya lakukan fiq, saya tidak tahu nak membahagia kan awak :(, saya betol-betol tidak tahu mengapa awak boleh sabar dengan sikap saya fiq, Fiq , Feral done alot of mistake toooo you baby, why you still can patient with my attitude. At times, i know you have your mistake too, please dont put me as your first priority i dont want you too pampered me baby, DONT!

i'm too pampered with mommy and the family, i dont know why, i trying to be indenpendent but hiash.

Boo, Gimme time for me to forget him and forget him, i know i shouldnt contact him, He used vulga on me , call me names i don't know why i still msging him, i know i shouldnt ! I'm sorry, Please gimme times for me to let go of him, i told you even tot he been cruel to me , i hope the way he did make me hate him. I will do  whatever you want me to do just i don't lose you baby. Please! I beg you baby, i sick and tired baby of this again and again, can i with you happily like other couple ? Go through thick and thin together baby without anybody interfere can ? Our parents sudah merestui hubungan kami, saya tidak mahu kehilangan awak untuk kali kedua, saya tau saya bersalah , maafkan saya.  I'm sorry BabyboyfieFiq. :(

Last 3rd October i was working, and yeah with my dear Inez, she lost he voice pity her, but pity me hahaha i need to serve all the customer. Yet at home what happened, my whole family pergi jalan raya with my cousins, i'm so sad :( , This year raya i never even seen my cousin, wana,abang irwan

kak amanlina,kak shahein,syaidi abang yasser etc, my cousin kids, taufiq, natasha i cant get to meet them, lagi-lagi my auntie kecoh, my late-dad grandmother also i didnt go visit, how i supposed to go visit them i working . I feel so sad can't get to meet them, They all been asking for me , I miss them very-very-very much.

To my cousin, i love you guys, but just that my works is not flexible ,

On 3rd also my schmates they went outing :( i cant get to meet them . i so down, but yet there my babyboyfieFiq to cheer me up withh all his merepekness, He send me to work and fetch me from work how sweet is that, Spent a night with my whole family not just a night but 2 night with my family, I'm superrr glad my family love him very-veryy much, YAHOO! allhamdulilah , Syukur :). Sometimes i feel so down my family kecohness and my boyfie merepekness make me cheer up, Im so glad yeah !

4th Oct, Oh yeah my shitty day ! Was supposed to be off but than one of my collegue have contraction okay i fine with it but than its my off day, i req from 3-5th and yet only they grant me 4 and 5th, but than 4 i come  back to work ! wow ! how am i not supposed to be angry ? what do you think , tot that sunday can go jalan raya with family but need to work, kalau bayar gaji aku beribu tkpe !Hmmmph!Pfffffftt ! Pissed off! and yet work with Ulyana a Russian Girl, okay went i hear her story kinda sad, wanna know why she get to beat up by his boyfriend that are 4 years in R'ship , imagine 4 years ? get beaten up what kind of BF is that ??

I super-duper glad that My bbyFiq is NOT like that ! Happyyyyyy ! :) Oh yeah, Kalies was sick and i ask ulyana work with twinny , Okay fine-fine Go ahead, I work alone another pissed off thing! Shitty day BUT yet my bbyFiq, stiiiilllll da one who CHEER me up, wooooohoooooooooooo! Love you baby!

5th Oct Today or yesterday okay anything will do , What I do ? Guesssss!

Yeah spent time with my family finalllly, Do u know how much i love my family , VERY MUCH! They are my pillow, bed , sun , moon , shoulder, laughing gags i love my family soooooo MUCH ! and yessss, BbyFiq also with me today, bbyfiq accompany me to bank, with my 2 lil-vain girl . Hahaha! thanks bby for taking care of dem , "HE CAN ENTERTAIN KIDS ATTITUDE" lagi-lagi si mok-mok ica, wow! shout here and there but my bby still can entertain them in the bank somemore , heee! Mok-mok ica suka Uncle Fiq ehk, Gatal ! :P

Bby, My 2 lil Vain girl love you very much, But i LOVE you more Bby love! Went to pasar-malam with Him and Iqa , bought some varieties food than quickly home as wanna catch macam-macam aznil heee!

TOTALLY HILARIOUS THAT AZNIL, my whole family laugh , i love his show, and my bby was there too, mommy cook and sedia kan makan we ate ramai-ramai, with bby tooooo! 

BBY , I LOVE YOU.

kay now i think wanna go to bed , once again i might be on hiatus as busy with works and bby!

Friday night with baby might be drinking with him and 21st Go clubbing with ladies, all might be going !

&&& Lastly i miss my people but are they missing me like i miss them ? I love you fellows !

Good Morning & Asalaimualaikum :)